endless spleen

i need an accomplice in my escape. i have lost the feelings that overwhelmed my youth. i need to strip my skin. my life unfolds like a tv. i do not know how to act upon my life.
a friend said to me today that all interactions are essentially capitalistic. an exchange is necessary in any relationship. but i do not want to exchange the usual things. i don't want to be tied to any values other than my own inner direction.
what is the meeting place for two souls? we see each other thru the shroud of our lives. little can penetrate... us. we need pain to create our points of entry and departure. the ennui must be bled from us; our activities must be shed

















i am watching tv

get me out of here